The timeline of you

You think you'll cry after having one too many drinks

You'll realize you don't

The world just spins and your eyes lose focus but your mouth will still slur out his name

You're grasping the toilet seat thinking you'll never do this again, that he's not worth the panic you'll feel when you think your body had too many drinks and forget to breathe while you were sleeping

And then you finally get to the moment you wanted to have all along: when you're sleeping, dreamless

when thoughts of him don't run through your head

when you don't feel anything at all

And then you wake up the next morning, thanking God you actually don't have a hangover

Staring up the ceiling, enjoying a few moments of being a blank slate

Slowly..

Thoughts of him resurface in your mind

Slowly..

His eyes

Slowly..

His voice

Slowly..

His smile

Slowly..

Memories with him

Slowly..

The words he said to simply break your heart

Slowly..

A trickle of tear goes down your cheek and onto the pillow which must be sick and tired of catching tears as you are

Slowly..

You think, "Ah, finally, the tears have caught on."

02.22.2016